829 / 1096 : Before Bertha, I was a roller coaster, carnival embracing lunatic. But now, with the crowds, the noise, the lights, the inevitable loss of equilibrium...carnivals are no longer a part of my world. I can't enjoy them the way I used to before. I refuse to let that get me down though. Yes I can't participate in all the crazy chaotic revelry....but...I can experience it in a different way. I get to see it without the crowds, without the noise...without the light...without the loss of equilibrium. I walk alone through the closed fair ground and make the time to see the nightly stillness, darkness and peace that no one ever pauses to appreciate. Alone on the carnival ground at night isn't such a bad thing after all.